and now I have to check my phone every time it rings
to make sure it's not another suicidal call
from the one I care about the most

I wish things were different
but some things aren't meant to be changed at all

You say you need someone who actually cares
so does that make me invisible to you?

Jesus Christ it hurts so much to be this way
it may appear that you're the only one who needs help
which is quite true
but can't you open your eyes
to the one who's always there for you
is in just as much pain

My aching heart doesn't long any more for you
it just longs to see you get better

I love the idea of that
but no longer in love with you

Neither of us can't seem to let go
and maybe that is why I still find myself
staring at my phone
for hours
contemplating whether or not if I should call you

& that's the thing
I don't
You will end up calling me anyway for your problems
while I listen
but stay away from venting my own