Nov 2014
Throughout my life,
I was scared of being still.
I needed to move,
Or stay in motion, because once
I was still...
Feelings would catch up to me.
I needed to be faster than sadness,
Prepared for temporary happiness
To fade,
So I never got hurt.
That's what I do.
My heart or my mind would never really be where anyone else was,
But I am here.
I am here.
And I am still.
I was scared of being still.
I needed to move,
Or stay in motion, because once
I was still...
Feelings would catch up to me.
I needed to be faster than sadness,
Prepared for temporary happiness
To fade,
So I never got hurt.
That's what I do.
My heart or my mind would never really be where anyone else was,
But I am here.
I am here.
And I am still.
I'm learning to be brave. I'm learning to not be afraid of acknowledging feelings. No, I will not be driven by my emotions but I will not let myself ignore them either.
