I'm told the only way grow over you, is to peel apart every memory; I must reach down my choked-up throat, and feel around for you inside my broken body - find the figments of my bitter fantasies and watch them over and over
[the night we walked home at 3am and shouted lyrics from Snow Patrol at the scarecrows in the graveyard/ the night we ****** three consecutive times/ the night I decided I would let myself fall]
until I suffocate and hate you, all the same; the best-tested remedy is to become a practicing ******* - a professional pain analyst,
and so I'll gag myself cleansing my body from your presence, I'll pour my liver out if only to pry apart the bargains; I will ruin every black and white filmstrip if only to say goodbye for the last time