Hey. I just woke up from a dream that you starred in and at first it was great, we were hanging out, doing the things we usually do, but then you told me that you were going to go away for a while and it really scared me because I really felt that whatever God there is was not fair enough to allow me to have the time to properly get to know you and perhaps become a permanent fixture in your life. I felt like a wreck. I called you all the time. You got so annoyed you eventually stopped answering. The thing that scared me the most about this was the fact that it is so likely how fast this could happen and I am honestly scared if this actual outcome between us, being separated and then having our bond- that rubber band I like to think is invincible- break, is going to happen because this is not the way I would imagine things ending between us, if things ever do have to end. Even though it is 1:51 in the morning, I am wishing that I can be with you and tell you these things, but I am sitting here waiting for a miracle to happen while you're "no miracle worker," waiting for a relationship where there is no chance for there to be one, waiting for you to  love me where you feel nothing at all. This dream reminded me of that fact. And also another, the fact that I don't ever want to lose you or whatever it is that we have built up.
You know why you stopped contacting me in the dream? At the end I was debating whether or not to tell you how I felt, and decided to tell you.
And even though I am not actually making this into a text but rather into a note to be made into a poem, I am hoping that I can have the courage to show you and have you understand how I truly feel by showing this to you.
But I won't.
So you'll never know.