Every time I talk about writing- My writing, my Frivolous scribblings-in a Negative light, you tell me, "You have to write 200 bad poems Before you can write a good one." And I have not known you Long enough to understand the Nuances of your speech but I have learned, quickly, that you Are poetry Now, this might sound cliche but what I mean is That when I see you with your bony knees and Isaac Newton hair my heart Dips backward in between my ribs the Fluid motion of your mouth flipping into a grin is a Chain reaction to my own smile your Piano fingers stained with ink or paint or dirt caked in life, In adventures, are their own language and the way you move Them when you speak makes a dance, a Twisty tango of gyration and gesticulation. Exhaling clouds of smoke from your lungs, you Frame your forehead with tobacco laurels And I don't worship you, no, but I admire you, In the way that you cultivate goodnaturedness but Hide behind it In the way that you discuss bigdeal things in a Nobigdeal way If you wonder why I like you, it's because you are Honest in a way that is raw and I've never Felt someone cut me in two with just a gaze. You are nervous energy and social anxiety and bred to live in nature. You are suave in a lanky way and still unsure of yourself. You are a star collapsing in on itself blazing so bright before you Burn out. And I want that. I want that easiness and integrity and Dancingontablesbecausewhynot and Singing a song you don't know the words to in a rubberduck voice. And I want you. I want you to want me, to Want to understand my nuances and quirks and hopes and fears and Why I cringe inside a body that I never belonged to. I want your poetry for myself. So if I have to write 200 bad poems before I write 1 good one, Regardless of where it falls-and where I fall- This one is for you.
*I'm pretty sure the quote comes from Billy Collins, but not positive* I have a lot of feelings