this is the saddest day of my life.
a smile can barely run across my face.
i stay up late
i sleep in the daytime
the sun never made me smile
but i didn't crawl away from it
as i do now.
i get enjoyment out of being alone
human interactions i no longer need
i need to learn to love myself
instead of making people love me.
i need to think about my happiness
and why i am the way i am
what certain changes i could've made
what path i could've taken
a different school could've made me miss out on
the friends i did make but make me miss the ones i lost.
i like being naked now
in my own skin
that's what im most comfortable in
my hair in its natural state
not burning its way to be straight.
i just wish the rest of me could
be happy with me.