I find comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool, the streams of light overhead quietly drinking in the water, lapping at this microcosms feet. The familiar weight in my ears drowns out the noise, The coolness against my soft skin feels weightless and beautiful the eventuality of breaking the surface is almost sorrowful No one can touch you here, like a stone you sink slowly, you are cut free from the ties that have held you for so long and just like the tiny bubbles you'll race towards the curving surface and into the light and realise you were never meant to breathe here. Not long is left and you break through, only wanting to escape back to where everything was so clear, and so simple. But, although out of the water, and into the hands of a new morning the fingers still curl around your neck, and you realise you’ve been holding your breath for a long time and you're still holding it And you wonder if you’ll ever breath again.