Why would you want to be with him when he’s all over other girls?

well,
I think I’m scared to be alone again.
And I think I’m blinded by the thought that he actually “loves” me
Like when you get into a relationship that’s been going for this long
And you think that you actually want to be with them
And they want to be with you,
And you begin to see things slowly again
Like him with other girls
And you think
do I really want him
Or the affection he gives me.