It seems as if you slowly are just becoming the creature
not any creature
but that creature that has been in all my nightmares
ever since you struck me
with your power and fury.
I sometimes wish we could have had that bond
that bond every girl wishes to have
for you to hold me
and love me unwillingly
to do anything in your power to ever stop me from thinking
about death or sacrifice.
If only you could stop drinking
Stop cursing my brain with your foul mouth.
You are the reason I am alive and dead
pushing me to explore things that are uncalled for.
In my dream, you are the only one alive
killing all of us.
You have caused so many things
and you deserve so much more
than me.
I will always try and love you unwillingly,
but until you know everything about me
my cuts, my attempt at freedom,
then you shall never know how to
be a Dad.