I loved and i lost

I gave and i lost

I loved you and i lost

I gave you my heart and i lost.

I gave you my heart

So you could take care of it

I wanted you to hold it into our hands

I wanted you to treat it like a baby

But instead you played with it.

But it's partly my fault,

I should have realized when you used the word 'play'

To be honest you used it almost every day

Playing a game

Or playing football

Or playing dominoes

They were all the same .

It was a sign

You were always playing

Probably up until today you still think this is all a game.

WELL THIS IS NOT A GAME !!

IT'S NOT A GAME WHEN THE PATCH THAT'S LEFT AFTER YOU TORE MY HEART FROM MY CHEST,

BLEEDS EACH DAY

IT'S NOT A GAME WHEN I WRITE MYSELF TO SLEEP

IT'S NOT A GAME WHEN I'M NOW LOOKING AT THE WORLD WITH HATE

IT'S NOT A GAME CAUSE THINGS ARE NOT THE SAME !!

IT'S NOT

I'M HURTING

MY MIND HURTS

MY BODY HURTS

I CAN'T MOVE

I'M NUMB

BABY IT'S NOT A GAME WHEN SINCE THE DAY YOU WALKED THROUGH MY LIFE'S DOOR

NOTHING'S GOING WELL

IT'S NOT A GAME WHEN I'M IN THE OCEAN OF DEPRESSION

AND I'M DROWNING

It's not a game when after 15 days

I still call you my boyfriend

'Where's my bf ?'

'My boyfriend' this and 'my boyfriend' that

It's not a game when i have to be correcting myself

By screaming "HE'S YOUR EX YOUR EX !!!!!!"

Maybe it's because i still hope that we have a chance of being together.

It's not a game when I'm left with nothing

It's not a game dear

It's not a game

I loved and i lost.