loneliness: in my dreams we go on adventures you, without a face or a name travel with me as we raid corporate offices and write children’s books and turn tables searching for truth and liberation you strike deep roots, deeper roots than I could ever fathom
sometimes I try to deny you the earth’s blessings sometimes, loneliness, I try to pull you out from the soil but I can only claw so deep into the earth before I am tired sweaty, in the hot sun, the sandy soil sliding back down around your rootspace
loneliness, you are not the same as despair loneliness, you are not a perennial I should let you grow deep and wide, I should let you take over the entire garden Do I even have the heart or soul left to grow anything else this year?
One of these days I might regret stymieing your growth I would wonder what your blossoms would look and smell like What your fruit would taste like if I gave you time to bear it What nutrients you might leave to nourish a rootspace in my soul That could be filled with love, laughter and a future so distant and so near I could know not its name
loneliness: let’s be friends I’ll leave fear and longing behind and we can bear on together, Our cups overfull, our hands acheing with energy The sand, the soil, into the forest together We discover a world I would have never known without you And I will learn to carry you not as a burden but as a blessing Since it’s been so long since I’ve known your name Why would I deny the opportunity To savor your bittersweet flesh in a hot afternoon? It will take time, But I have all the patience in the world