"I didn't say no.. Why didn't I say no?" "It was my fault. I should've said no." "Why'd he have to do it? Why'd he have to do it to me?" "I shouldn't have let it continue. I should've told someone the first time." "Why didn't he go to jail?" "Why wasn't he punished?" "I never should've told anyone. I should've just let it go." "My mother hates me because of this." "Will she ever forgive me?" "She will always love him more than me.." "Why didn't she kick him out? I was nine years old." "Why did my own brother do this to me?" "If I **** myself, I won't have to see his face anymore.."
I was ***** repeatedly at nine years old by my fifteen year old brother.