please understand that there are broken parts of me that i can't fix and the more i fumble with them the more they crumble and maybe that's my fault because my hands shake and i'm the farthest from gentle i promise i'm working on my technique
i don't try to smother it just comes naturally to me like breathing even if you say the right things i'll still struggle just like if you were to wrap your hands around my throat i would still try to breathe you can talk about whatever you want i'll hang my head and listen
you know that thing i do? the one we talk about a lot? i probably do it because i don't know what to say or i don't want to say the wrong thing or i think the conversation is over but i should probably pay more attention to your words instead of my own
i either talk too much or not enough and my poems are always too long and never make much sense just like my thoughts and to me it's like trying to untie a jumble of knots by just cutting them like the fates snipping threads
i apologize too much i feel guilty for things i never did or things that aren't a big deal and i've tried so very hard in this poem to not apologize