She is warm and she is soft. She is a warm soft place that I like to be and want to continue being in/around/with.
I dreamed of the first time her and I made love, except it was different. Everything was tinted blue and there was less blood.
Second Night (No Dream)
Third Night (Second Dream)
You are warm, but I cannot remember your warmth. I remember the touch of your hand in likeness to the color of your hair; orange and sun streaked. But now you are gone (or leaving, I'm not sure) and I'm begging you to stick around. In my dream we were sitting on your neighbors porch, kissing as we were that night. Only this time, I was out of body, lingering around the Christmas lights, screaming at you to stop, because I knew I would not listen, but you might.
As much as I miss you I'm just as upset with you. You didn't cause my problems, I didn't start popping pills because you made me sad. I'm better now and I want to celebrate this with you but you're gone. You continue to promise me you'll come back, but actions speak louder than words. Just let me be happy with my life without missing my best friend.