We walked in and you were groggy Laying in bed. I wanted nothing more than to lay with you. But instead I sat on the floor, pretending to admire the ceiling.
How ironic that you were wearing my favorite shirt of yours White with blue and orange stripes. It's the only thing about that evening that went as I had planned. And even that was short lived.
Hayden felt at home and I felt alone. Mike was somewhere in between. I couldn't tell if you were surprised that I was in your room. Maybe you were too tired to think.
But I wasn't. So I sat there, next to the poster of Fergie Pretending to admire the ceiling Wondering if you'd let me clean the cobwebs in the corner.
It was a beautiful ceiling Intricate and gold. I couldn't imagine your room being any other way. Fergie's *** was rubbing it in my face.
I followed everyone downstairs they were waiting for a movie but I was waiting for you. I was afraid you had gone back to bed
You changed your shirt but didn't bother to fix your hair. I like white button-ups but not as much as the stripes. You have very boney knees but I don't mind.
I wished I could say something clever like I normally do. But I just can't when I'm around you. My thoughts were wasted or already used by someone else. That was humiliating.
You wanted to drive with us to my house. But you didn't bother put shoes on. We held eye contact and it looked like you forgot how to smile. That was the highlight of my evening.
"This house is beautiful" was the first thing I said. Hayden said something like "It's old as hell" And you both went on to joke about the ghosts that built it.
I went to your house with a bunch of people and it ******.