i have a great thinking capacity
but my thoughts feel like a mystery

my dreams
are eating me
faster than chipped concrete
breaking me
emotionally;
mentally.

thoughts translate
into garbled words
that i cant really communicate
i try to emulate
desires that
seem unattainable
probably unbelievable

brain-eating nightmares
like electrical cords
shock me
like a thousand swords

i am disintegrating
my mind seems to be decaying
probably rotting
or maybe i had just been dreaming

(b.d.s.)