I looked at my face tonight. I was so lost and miserable.
And I loved it.
My blurred eyes trying to focus on the thoughts deep inside my mind.
I don’t want that but it just has to be this way.
And I’m too much of a coward to lie. Even to myself.
Constantly tripping and trying to find a way out.
And being so beautifully sad inside, cruelly trying not to lose hope.
But the hope is gone and far, far away.
I’m trying to feel something. Something real. But maybe I feel too much at once.
Am I too fragile to feel?
They say all the truth is simple. But isn’t that a lie? Such a ******* lie!
I am forced to be honest but that honesty points me to nowhere. I’m only more and more lost.
Lost. Lonely. Disappointed. Empty. Scared.