there was a tiny sliver
between love
and loneliness

and it was where you lived

you were every
menacing breath taken
when i was alone
and craving a cigarette

but you were also
every gasp of air
when i was passing
out with laughter

you are a lovers'
clasped hand
and a balled fist
hidden under a
long sleeve
of a sweater

you were every
tear shed and
every smile
that made my
cheeks hurt

you were that
place of security
but also
painful longing

but i love you
indefinitely

as that state
of uncertainty

as that girl
of dreams

as everything
you are
and everything
you aren't