I try so hard to keep this happy mask on
So that no one feels bad about how I feel
Do you not understand how tiring that is?
When I say "I'm tired"
please know, I'm not just physically tired
I'm tired of everything
I'm tired mentally
physically
spiritually
perpetually tired
a never ending tired that makes me want to sleep forever
but saying stuff like that makes you uncomfortable
it makes everyone uncomfortable, so I don't talk about it anymore
I keep it all bottled up, deep inside my soul
eventually I'll explode, I won't be able to handle the pressure
and like a volcano after having all that hot air and pressure building up
I'll explode, and I don't know how much damage I'll cause
So for now, My mask will stay on
and for now I'll be "happy"
and for now my problems don't matter
for now, I'll hide how I feel, behind my nice and shiny mask