maybe I’m lying
maybe I’m protecting myself
like you told me to

               I listen to our song
and I shed another
and another
like a tap that’s been left to stream

               my thoughts
they scream
they shout so loudly
they want to converse with yours

               and my hands
they desire yours
and my shoulder
wishes
oh so wishing fully
that your head
would rest on it once more,

               that we’d lie down
my arm around your neck

               that this would all be a nightmare
that you’d come to me
with a solution,

               that I’d meet you
perhaps another time
to tell me you still love me