I  put myself out there
praying for acceptance.
I thought wasting myself, was just apart of life.
And losing your respect
never felt so different.
Found that I was just a body and never a mind.

The way I started to feel
left me in this distance.
Thought this couldn't be real, em I the only one?
Couldn't wait until
my pride gave up resistance
leaving me thoughts to ****, using the bottle like a gun.

But this time i'm not falling under the wave again
crawling in the sand
I will face who I really am.

When I come home tonight
It wont be like the first time
letting days pass by, thinking I'm the only one
because
filth
will
not
claim me
and
guilt
will
not
shame me
Even though fear is real, its not all we have to feel
I may be a little light
but before this world, I'll shine bright.