I've been checking my heartbeat
Yeah, it's still going, actually quite fast
just to make sure I'm not a ghost
I've stopped caring so ask me anything
So, continue to shake my dreams
where I have the courage to speak
It's in my dreams and memories, you smile
But in reality, when I see you
I am left with rushing mind and hallow heart
I see you walk closer with that empty face
and secretly distraught, gorgeous eyes.
which make me want to ask if you're alright
too late to try, you've already walked by
leaving me with a cowardly stomach
which I'll reflect on when I try to sleep tonight
I've been reflecting on the past so much, I rarely see the present
Brought to my knees again, trying to breath
I think my heart stopped for a moment
I fear this writing has said to much
but I've found if I don't feel comfortable,
I'm not writing about the right things
I should know the over-thinking kills me
but I tend to do it anyway
I've stored up all the words I can throw
but that doesn't mean I'll get the chance to use them
my heart has no reason to keep pumping
but I will fight to survive
perhaps I'll find the answer in your smile