While I’m terribly depressed in this dark silent room.
Somehow this aggression turns into an even deeper depression.
Now I have so many emotions that I cannot explain ….why I suffer in all this hate and pain.
Because I know in the morning I will regain… the dark feelings I have ….and the strain..  
Numbers, figures flying across my head, because I don’t know who I’m supposed  to be……I really don’t wanna be this type of me….
They tell me to get over it… tomorrow will be a better day…. To be honest… I just wanna sit on the dock of the bay.. because my days feel like years and my years feel like eternity….
What am I supposed to do… sit here in my jealousy???
Jealous of those that wake up in the morning.. look in the mirror and love what they see
That has someone to hold..has someone to love…has someone to say your beautiful in every way…

  These days turned into hours….hours turned in to minutes
I woke up that day feeling refreshed. ….I was so blessed that I found the address of the doors of happiness
This was the end….
I can finally walk in to that place we call a world, leaving the extra baggage behind.
I am not designed to fit your checklist of what a “women” is supposed to look like…
KEEP YOUR UNKIND WORDS!!!I’ve found my peace of mind.. If you can’t look pass looks then…. You’re clearly blind!
-Raeven Leigh Winter-