I should "bulk up" on medication before winter hits, except it's still going to happen. Winter that is. And I have no desire to be a drug induced optimist or less than the naturally "chemically imbalanced" piece of garbage that I am. No lust for the special snowflake zombie, who staggers in a unique world; infinite wonders. I'm smiling as I write this; but could someone please ask, "Would you rather die than be happy?".