You told me
That you're so much
Happier

Because you have
That new trainer
Who's going to
Help you
Lose the weight
Because you say you're
Fat

Because your parents
Saw the scars
That cover your left
Wrist
So they are trying
To lighten up
On you

Because your parents
Are being nicer
About your grades
So you won't have so much
Stress

Because they finally
Noticed
That you were
Close to the
Edge.

And I am so
Sorry
Because I sit here
And talk to you
Saying how
Happy I am
For you

When in reality
I'm not.

Because now
You're just like
The rest of them
Telling me that it's
Easy
To get over
This seed of
Sadness
That grew deep
Inside me
And won't seem
To stop
Growing.

Because I am
Happy for you
That is was
Easy
Because you're
My best friend
And I love you

But no one
Realizes
That I am slowly
Dying inside
Day by day
And that I am
Quietly pleading
For help

And you
Don't understand
That I may
Never
Get past this.

-e.w.