I've been digging through this dumpster far too long trying to get to the bottom of it all. Slimey sweet stench there's my first love my first pipe my last light my first rush my last gush my first bet my last buck "the game ain't over until the rent money's gone."
I am down a deep hole and my only tool is a shovel I've got that one choice but to go down down down. Drunk and dial Drunk and poetry how did I get here how do I get out?
I'm a spiritual wasteland connected to no one connected to nothing My drug My man My woman My casino The rush comes first The numbness comes last until death, insanity or jail is within my grasp. I do what I do But I am allergic too you understand when I do what I do I break out in handcuffs jail cells strapped down to beds looking around longing for my dumpster and what I might have found.
1st Step 12th Step I've done them all though the 13th Step I liked the best Sponsors have come and gone Spiritual awakenings have all been done I am back in this dumpster where I had begun.
There is an exquisite mystery at the heart of it all the internal shift happens an inside job The 21 year old's first black out enough is enough The 60 year old on his fifth DUI going out for one more round.
It is true I have seen it many times Recovery can be found Hope restored Wisdom in these halls Peace within these walls The dumpster closed and left behind A ladder falls and arrives acceptance and gratitude combine as they say "One day at a time."
"Poker the game ain't over until the rent money is gone" was on a greeting card. 13th Stepping is hitting on new comers in meetings. I am not in recovery yet, but I always need to add the yet.