I take selfies from the chest up, positioning the camera in such a way that my fat arms don't look so fat. Full body pictures? Are you stupid? I've got enough meat on my bones to feed the hungry children of a third world country but At least I have a "great personality" As if personality is the first thing that people see when they see me. I know what they see Lack of self control, heaping mounds of disgusting fat My long sleeves serve two purposes 1. To hide the hurt that I need to release from my body through my wrists 2. To hide the stretch marks on my fat arms. I'm sorry. I just don't understand how you can tell me to love myself when I know that you, yourself, can't find a single thing about this bloated anatomy to love I am anxious about eating in public because I already look like I've had dinner for two with no room left for desert I hug myself to cover my stomach when I sit, because that's when I can't really **** it in. I'm fat. So I don’t blame anyone for not seeing that I limit myself to one meal a day and that when I'm really feeling adventurous, I'll eat two and throw up the extra My first and last real crush laughed in my face when I decided to say "*******, social anxiety!" and tell him that I liked him. "Who knew fat people could feel anything but hungry?" I wonder if he—or anyone, for that matter—cares that I can't look at myself in a mirror without criticizing every flaw That I can't look at myself without crying That I can't look at myself and name one physical thing I love about me because I don’t find that the phrase I am beautiful should ever be uttered by my lips unless the word not is in the middle. I am not beautiful. **I am fat.