I haven't stayed up this late since our restless early morning contests to see who would fall victim to heavy eyelids and tired thoughts. I won of course, you most of the time, but I won on the longest nights (or so I'd like to think) though my satisfaction was rooted from something entirely different. To be honest, I could have cared less about the victor; I was competitive but I liked when you won - the shine in your voice and the glimmer in your smile telling me how I snored through the night (I didn't) was much more rewarding.
I haven't stayed up this long since our late night conversations turned into early morning slurred sentences of who could make the most sense whilst repeating I love you inaudibly through earphone speakers and bundled blankets. And as much as the tiredness enveloped me in its embrace, the thought of yours implied through the telephone waves proved to be worthwhile, nonetheless. You were miles beyond my reach, but you were simple words away.
I haven't stayed up this late since we fell asleep falling in love in different beds but with the same desires, on the same line; on the same page. And I hate to admit it, but I still like to think of it that way.
- g.d.
And surprisingly, I'm smiling about this realization.