I lay out in front of me a coffee cup, Ceramic and cold ,warming with the lukewarm poison, Why when you warn me off the threat, Do i down the cup just to feel the warmth crystalise in my veins, The sigh of relief mixes with the pungent stink of life haunting me, Why am I not happy? My pain was meant to be gone ,yet my heart still beats And still beats for you , Why do i still go for coffee when coated with cyanide The suffering i enjoy the excitement kick starts my heart When all i wanted for it to stop, And yet it still beats And still beats for you