i say
"im not interested
in anyone"
and
"im not wanting
a relationship, im only young.
why date during school?
i have work to do."

but the truth?

it's far from what i say
i "want".

i can't sleep anymore.
the thoughts start to consume me..
its all i think about now.

im just setting it aside as
hormones --
and going
completely
insane.

but i think i might
actually want
something
with someone.