don't push me.

i can't do it
for a reason.

im terrified.

i hate confrontation!

can't i just.. deal with it?
silently,
quietly,
as my heart
twists in pain,
my lungs
slowing down
every breath i take.

i can deal with that.

to keep us friends.

i don't want to lose you..

yes you may have
talked about me behind my back,
made fun of me to my face,
pointed out insecurities,
embarrassed to be infront of people i love,
hurt me physically --
not just emotionally.

but i can't lose you.

you're one of my closest friends.

even though
i know
it's all a fake.

you hate me.

i still can't
lose you.

my body won't let me.