You figure you're 18, okay
You wanna go outside, alright
First, stumble into a fight
Thinking you'll be okay and alright
Then they say it's all in your brain
But I didn't buy a ticket for this train


Before you know it,
It feels like the world is falling apart
I guess I'll have to take it all to heart
Now you failed me again
What am I doing up at 3 am?


Now I have been counting the stars
Hoping one leads to an answer that I want to hear.
I want to stop being dug into a grave.
While walking the earth knowing I'm not the devil's slave.


Before you know it
You are put on a million pills
Knowing you didn't want to work at the mills
Now you failed me again
What am I doing up at 3 am?


I have never seen a 17-year-old in my office before
Those words are not for the faint of heart
Yet those words tore me apart
As I stand as a mystery
I can't even think of my history


Before you know it
You are crying on your bed
Praying it is not in your head
Now you failed me again
What am I doing up at 3 am?


Doesn't your sunburn hurt? It looks bad
My tolerance is a lot higher than it used to
Like it just came out of the blue.
It doesn't feel right anymore
Like I might be an underscore.

Before you know it
You don't feel right
Why does the world seem so bright
Now you failed me again
What am I doing up at 3 am?