Autumn and sleep deprivation

The world spins, right left right left
I am falling off the edge
I am slipping away
Drowsy, sick, tired and lethargic

I ache for what once was but will never be again
Sore for reminiscence
Yearning for reconnection
left hallow in the lack of your presence

I saw her last night dancing her heart out
It was glowing, how the leaves do when the sky is empty
And loud like lighting and thunder on a stormy fall night as
Her feet bounced up and down the wooden floor

I could feel her eyes on me
An unshakable serene feeling
Her lavender taut dress was a magnet and my eyes steel
We are the two neither poles

We bear each others presence
My brain is filled with the presumption of
how we were meant to be here together
Like two yellowed leaves decomposing

A promise broken

I stood in the corner with another person
His arms around my waist
My palms on his face
Yet no true yellow rays of embrace

I don't feel delight nor contentment
Rather bitter resentment
For him, for you, for me, for the world

I have to ripe in the consequences of my actions for as long as we are in this building together