it was her birthday today i wished her that too in midnight I stayed up late just to wish her she took her time but she replied “thank you”
tried to speak to her her replies without soul like forcing a new born to speak French
I had drawn a gift card and bouquet of flowers intended to give her these but after the convo decided not to wildflowers which I picked with my own hands she is probably accepting some rare exotics
it’s cold and am deprived of sleep the smell of flowers fill the room-reminding unrequited love the gift card is up in flames bringing me warmth I would’ve want her to have these even if I froze to death afterwards, I only cared about her warmth
love and life both have lost meaning all the things I thought about her are evaporating faster than alcohol
I am poor to date her rich enough to write about her