The thought of drinking with them again makes me sick,
I had to wake up and say no.
The killing myself life long misery so quick,
The last bile in me was a blow.
Funny how life works things cared about so strong,
Sooner or later catches up.
Regret and pain knowing who I hurt for so long,
Pouring my life away in cup.
I always asked something selfish of the All High,
Never realising friendship had.
All I ask now is not even to say goodbye,
Thought of losing them makes me sad.
Keep them safe soul from poison God let me go first,
For I know and You know the pain before its worst…