hotly simmering in my veins, just beneath the surface. i'll have it any other way.
making small talk, i'm acting as if i'm not adraid. but i'm oh-so sick of the talking, dancing around, ghosting. rinse n' repeat, i'm gonna keep this away.
but i want it, but any other way. 'cause it's so nauseating chatting, smiling, being a little flirt, then curling up in bed.
and it is still simmering hotly, in my veins.
i'm on edge, this i must confess. i want, no i need to hold her face i need the stars aligned today, the cosmos leads my fate and i need her in this place.
'cause it's blue and gray in here, but she's my sunflower could order the sun to face her, such greatness...
and i would kneel for her, would stand by her, would leave the rest away.
so i'll have it any other way...
my yearning for a girlfriend, a love and getting tired over bein ghosted