There is anger in your eyes. Instability when you look at me I fear for my safety, we both know what you could do.
What you are capable of.
In these moments your eyes are incapable of love. All I can do is look above me, into your face and pray you do not erase me.
You could.
We both know it. If it had ever gone to blows, who knows what could have happened? I honestly don't know, and so, I sunk low into the ground when you glared.
I thought I could tame you, through the rare times you were scary and the times in which you laughed, it was always a shame when those moments passed.
Hello Mr Hyde where is Mr Jeckll? Allow me to laugh along as you heckle me and my family, stand alongside me and taunt me.
No one's going to stop you. What could they do?
They thought me safe, within your embrace. The only one in our 'family' who could calm you, they all 'knew' that I loved you.
And I did.
You were everything. Absolutely everything.
After all, you stayed. You played along with my childish whims, you made me grin and laugh, helped me plan my path of dependence on you.
I thought that, as I grew, you'd stay. I thought you could be constant. Apparently not.
You helped to start this rot, began the knot in my stomach. You took my breath away, leaving me to choke on air all too aware of my fragility, all too incapable of stability.
Every one appears as you. Everybody new. Even if I trust them, I still can't shake the feeling that they're not going to hang about. Always worry they're about to shout. Always thinking I'm about to accidentally shut them out in panic.
You were far too manic. Mood changing rearranging our lives at the drop of a hat. Bat us out of the way, scream until we sway with your force.