Nov 10
Every time you got better
I would make a mistake
I would think it might last
I would think maybe
Maybe this time it would stick
It was only false hope
Time and time again
The "new you"
Never lasted
In an unexpected instant
You switched back
Just when I thought you changed
False hope
I would rather never hope
Than have my heart crushed every time
I would make a mistake
I would think it might last
I would think maybe
Maybe this time it would stick
It was only false hope
Time and time again
The "new you"
Never lasted
In an unexpected instant
You switched back
Just when I thought you changed
False hope
I would rather never hope
Than have my heart crushed every time
This is about my dad. He has BPD (Borderline personality disorder) and it makes him very unpleasant. Constant changing, no stability. It really messed with my head. When he would be in a good period I would always hope that this time it would last. Now I realize it won't and that he is never changing forever and it's better to believe that. I hate false hope.
(F/NJ/silently screaming)
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