Now The thunderous joy subsides And I am out of breath Cheeks hurting Do I wear this face of self Everywhere i go? Do they see? The confliction in creases The smallness The largeness Of things The disproportionate Incapacities I am no sombre-eyed bird They say I smile sweetly But I do not like my teeth I do not like my joy I am stiffled by my Beautiful Self-acceptance show It is terrifying to appear To be seen, twisted Moulded over and over By the eyeless mind, Ever unchanged and Impossibly me I am open For all but myself to see And how many faces For how many watchers Am I to wear them all? By God, am I to become them