I remember sitting in the garden of my therapists office, trying to feel the sun on my skin. She asks me if I can feel the warmth and no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to find it.
It took me 14 years to say those few words that changed everything. When my lips formed the whispered sentences, my shaking body suddenly felt so very different, even though the same things I was talking about happened to the same body.
When you start telling the truth, even if you can't build up the courage to speak all of it, a few words are enough, it becomes reality. It's been real all this time, but now that it's entered someone elses mind, you can't take it back.
And maybe that's what it takes. To start your healing.