Lasting love has eluded me
Loneliness still consumes

No matter what I do
or the difference that I make

The hole inside me
grows bigger with time

Why can’t I shake it
Why can’t I be fine

What’s the matter that I can’t
just love only myself and
embrace my time alone

I can’t explain it
I’ve tried so very hard
to chart a new path

Extrovert, fun, life of the party they say
If only they knew the bleakness inside

I hurt from the trauma,
the heartbreak and loss I’ve endured

I’ve never felt good enough
for this world I inhabit
Maybe the next one will
be more my jam

This lone life is just not for me
I hang on for others
So that they won’t be sad

But in time I will be ready
To do what I feel is in my grand plan