It seems I can't get away from my inevitable destruction

I've tried too many times to counterfit my emotions

And I've searched like a blind man drowning

I've put my best foot forward only to find myself running backward

I've laid my best intentions only to find the road to ruin paved with the best of them

I've said a thousand and more times sorry

Only to end up having to say a thousand times more

I've dared to dream my dreams and grasped only thin air

I've allowed myself to be used and abused time and time again

Like some twisted self flagellation

only to find my self unrepentant without even knowing it

I've hidden from the truth only to find it find me

I've doubled down and doubled myself over it

I've built walls to dam up my failings only to find holes in it

always one hole more than any fingers or toes I've got for it

Troubles always seem to find me and worries never leave my mind

I'm not afraid to cry

And here I am still hopeful I've got one more time left  in me, and the will to try

Who knows, one day I'll win the tittle and maybe...