Am I supposed to feel like sunrise, Or smell of freshly cut grass? Am I supposed smile with my teeth like white doves in unlocked cages? Is this supposed to give me hope Like a baby’s first breath? And emptying the vacuum?
All I feel is ugly and desperate Like a mushroom sprouting from cow **** Or the fitted sheet I never put on my bed
I fear if I go back to the beginning
I won’t ever be Homemade Apple crumble Lipstick stained skin Or my favourite Jane Austen book Not ever again
I don’t want to start from the beginning, I don’t know where to put all my love for you