safe spaces are crazy
i think i inhibit even myself because
subconsciously i still think i'm being looked at
from the outside
I think im being judged
or scrutinized
i wonder if it's the mania, if it's way too intense
"growth"
if it's shame or "cringe" of my past behavior

honoring this hate
to some degree, is necessary
even if i want to cut back the vines and allow my
emotions to swim from the depths

i know they have have gills

but all sharks still break            the surface

don't they?