I'm consistently looking for answers Feel need to understand This is not a life I've dreamt Far from what I planned In black and blue sight is drenched Each sound is monotone Surrounded by people or by myself Feel just as alone But there is no one besides me to blame Responsible for my tears Storms created by own hands I can't make them disappear Your voice calms rainfall Only effective source of power The once-torrential downpour Nothing more than moderate shower I miss planet bursting with color Vibrant hues have went dim No matter which direction looked towards the future Every avenue is bleak and grim I do not know how to fix everything I'm unsure of where I went wrong Weeks blur together Spiral the drain Days not lasting long Your words give hope to hold onto Clutch them during the coldest nights I can't tell what is real or not Making it hard to focus on the light I heard best is yet to come But finding it difficult to agree Every cloud overhead is grey Silver linings impossible to see