It was hard waking up today; I rolled over to the swirls in my coffee - the swirls in my head - I couldnβt - canβt - think straight; the world was a blur and I was in the midst of those terrible, awful, beautiful swirls. I hate it, when I feel this way - so slow, so tired - a Puppet. I suppose, if nothing else - that is why these sheets comfort me so; I am alone with my thoughts - for better or worse - as time guides my fragile hands to crease and curl what covers me whole; I am learning to make my bed so I can learn to make myself.