Passionate, bloodthirsty... Oh, so mean! Meaner than the meanest high school bullies you've seen. A particularly evil mindset, to a certain degree... Because I don't hurt with punches, I hurt with words. How can this be?
A blow in the right spot can make one faint, a line in the right place can put one to shame. From a blow they can recover just fine, but from shame? Trust me, that takes waay more time.
If everyone around me read what I write, they'd understand, at least a little, what tore me apart. The people would feel what I felt and I'd laugh as they bathed themselves with tears. Such delight!