Lust is a selfish genie Part life force of the universe Part energy of destruction Depending on its subject - or Object, actually, In the heat of things, after all. What else is beautiful And ugly at the same time? What else results in shameless highs Alongside endless crying? I may as well hate you For all the passion I feel And days like this — When your allergy to feeling Flares up, and I’m Blindsided by Indifference, Its thudding push Kicking up the Tailspin into the Thin-skinned nightmare, the Bed of nails I built here, Based on instructions received while Growing up in a small-sized-traumatized-normal-American household — Days like this oh yes you were right, You are an unwitting victim If my inability to cope with What it is you’re Not doing. I don’t want to blame you Or leave you so turn Inward I must. Away from the dream.
How will I set myself free? Will you still be there, then, with me? Sometimes choosing not To care To share To dare Is as freeing as falling in love, And honestly **** that **** — That’s reserved for me and you, In a bubble Somewhere far From life — maybe the Best Western aux Sables d’Olonne Or Malibu, that one night — I live there, for a time. I am free in my own mind.
There are feelings, And choices. The kleptocracy wants us All worn out on Each others’ sleeves — This makes it easier To put us in platoons And cubicles. I’m learning what to choose.