This place. I don't know. so many people / want to block.. their words-- they climb all over me. one's in particular:
Heart-expressed words bringing down the healing light of relationship to the parts of me who up until now have known little or no relationship of its kind;
and there is conflict within me as I fight it.. years the locusts have eaten; and the opportunity of restoration; often squandered. in vanity.
none of that mattered much;
until now--
When the unredeemed heart-parts of myself reveal to me their dormancy: left detached from community with one another-- an internal community necessary to withstand the brilliant light and glory brought down by those here who write as she does.
but she;
through her unfiltered heart-writes brings down the very magic and beauty and fullness of the relational dance of the godhead.
And it's raw beauty is ****** slayin me. I so want to block her for the conflict she creates in me . but I will press on
and allow her supremely-smithed words-- (words not even written to me) to have their beautiful way,
in
and through.. the help that has been all around me; (each and every one of us) waiting... all along
--as if they were cleaning my soul, re-integrating my fragmented, heart-parts.
I'm the innocent bystander.. Somehow, I got stuck between a rock and a hard place And I'm down on my luck Yes.. I'm down on my luck
--And I'm hiding in Honduras: I'm a desperate man Send lawyers guns and money the **** has hit the fan https://youtu.be/wT9XlQi0yew?t=57