I often wish I could simultaneously be dead and immortal death doesn't scare me, but to me, it can not be seen as a portal still, her hesitance in visiting me strikes me as rude, why isnβt she here yet? it's probably because to her zero may as well be ten, if not twenty, no sweat all is relative, but isnβt relativity what the average person fears? is it right? is it wrong? who knows. not me, I like not having answers: I happily drown in tears for minutes, hours, days, months, years perhaps I never stop, I always change, constantly run and rush just to collapse my mind travels roads my body cannot afford and I must admit, this is both my delight and my downfall